Behind the Silence... Confessions of a porcelain-painter artist

Behind the Silence… Confessions of a porcelain-painter artist My novel, which I have written on the basis of documents, correspondences and my mother’s memories, presents a lived life’s real events. It’s about my mother, about a beautiful, but by today broken person’s feelings, of a peculiar lot, and about the events hiding behind them. In the mirror of these, I show how the Politics – demanding part also from the values of Art – make impossible and sentence to death a family in the country of a tragically incompatible nation with its own sons. Through the peculiarities of the Hungarian society’s different strata, I present the contemporary art’s position in our time; the condition of the contemporary artists, who are at the mercy of the ”Fews’ interests”; and the invisible court of law, that shutters some wonderful artists’ life, annihilating them in their human quality. Within the contemporary art, I introduce my readers into that rare branche of Art, on which nearly three-hundred years ago emperors and bishops spent enormous wealths, and which even now is famous for its prestige all over the world: in the unbelievably colourful World of the Porcelains, full of intrigues, which is honoured by the name „White gold”;. My novel, as I’ve written, is about my mother, about a delicate woman’s tempestuous course of life full of vicissitudes, whom God has given a present to, with some very exceptional endowements, and filled her heart with many love, belief and spiritual force, so that she could struggle against the dams ruining with slow death of a soured society by its own poison. Her singular sensitivity and the special field of art where her unusual skill has carried her, made her know and see many human faces, which meetings has brought in her life many pleasure, but also many suffering. In one of the highland villages of a strange and formerly leggendary nation, settled in the Center of Europe not much more than one-thousand years ago, is born in the january of 1956, in the year of the revolution ended in massacre, that young girl, who is forced by her environment to escape already when she is a child, at hardly thirteen years old, so that she could ”arrive” as far as possible from the reality which has conducted her family to tragedy that cost her mother’s life. For her mother’s desire expressed in her ultimate letter, she is raised further on, in a small town at her uncle, where she has to face many cruelty alone. Notwithstanding, this town brings her also those meetings of her life, which give her a spiritual force which seems invincible, and a belief which doesn’t know impossible, for her further struggles. Two loves, lived for a life, carry her on in a two-faced world’s maze: the Porcelain-pinting, whose art she acquire in this place, and a strangely ”double-souled” Man, with whom she forms the most holy bond, and founds a family. Her first daughter, Hajnalka is born here, just like her desire, becoming into decision in her soul, to breake with her past again and definitively. She moves into the beautifully situated Szeged, in the Great Hungarian Plain’s loveliest town, famous for its cultural life and for the high standard of the musical education, so that she could give to her children everithing that she missed in her youth. Andrea, her second child is born here, and she is seduced by an other very nice profession, by the fashion, which she start in with the same enthusiasm and pleasure, with which at that time she did the painting of pictures and porcelains. After the alternation of relatively balanced and tempestuous periods, after successes and enormous failure at the end, finally she returns to the Porcelain-painting, to that her dream which has been always living in her. The financial conditions to found an independent porcelain-painter studio are given to her only by this time. Into the secrets of this splendid craft, which preservs tradition, but still includes in itself renewal, she introduces her first-born child, Hajnalka, and in few years is born a promising, fabulous and rich world by their hands. Spellbound by the Secessionist style, she works out colours which, with their profundity and peculiar light-refraction, are entirely unique on the world, and in the years, she discovers the producition-method of the world-famed glaze named Eozin, which has been being kept as secret since one hundred years, and to which she gives the name of Moonlight (Holdfény) because of its mysterious glittering of metallic lustre, shining in the most beatiful tints of the green colour, and for her respect for Vilmos Zsolnay. She have high hopes for the porcelain-painting: she feels from the ”beginning” that it means for her the ultimate possibility of put in order her daughters’ and her own life. And she doesn’t think that, with the beautiul craft, she is happened in a ”viper’s nest” climbing until the highest social strata, which is invisible, far and maybe incredible for many people, but for her is inevitable, mortal and mortally real. Her Mother-country, this country unable to restore itself to health maybe for ever, whose history was full of vicissitudes, cause her more and more disappointment. In other form: slipped into more decorated garment, concealed behind new faces’ new masks, but she meets the same forces which has exiled her from the little highland village. Under the burden of an incurable disease, forming in her meanwhile, and because of the glacial air of the shutting doors’ wind, her great belief and spiritual force leave her more and more. The last year’s struggles mean for her, life or death in the real meaning of the word. Written and translated by: Andrea Angelika Aszalós a.aszalos@yahoo.ie 6078 – Hungary, Jakabszállás, Kun Béla u. 26. Phone: +36 20 3113800 Published by Bastogi Editrice Italiana in June of 2008 All rights reserved Andrea Angelika Aszalós and Bastogi Editrice Italiana Srl. Chapters' title: The Tragedy ,,,,,, The years of Kalocsa: two Loves born to living for a life …………………………... A new chapter in my life The town of Szeged and my second-born childe, Ancsa …………………………. Love: Redemption or Cross ………………………………………………………… The dream and the reality The limits of the Nature …………………………………………………………. The Lot sealed ………………………………………………………………………. A wrong decision and their consequences ………………………………………….. Foundation of a porcelain-painter studio ……………………………………………. Exposition in the Embassy of the Republic of Hungary, in Vienna ………………….. Ray of hope Exclusive Gallery of the Aszalós Porcelains ……………………………………… ”Moonlight” …………………………………………………………………………… Shine and tears A beautiful porcelain exposition at the Days of Szeged and the visit of the delegation of the government …………………………………………………………………….. A tiny fruit of the struggle of power: the Prize of ”Honoured artisan-artist’s” of the County of Csongrád ………………………………………………………………………… The Prize of the ”Honoured artisan-artist’s of Hungary”…………………………….. Calculations My life on the ”chemist’s scales” of my husband ……………………………………. Touching of the Past …………………………………………………………………… The fatal contract ………………………………………………………………………. A mysterious man or fight for the life ………………………………………………….. Gift from a person wasn’t known ………………………………………………………. The hand of God ………………………………………………………………………... The human dignity ……………………………………………………………………… Refusal and Hope ……………………………………………………………………….. A morsel for the Survival ! I offer the works of my life …………………………………………………………. The Madam Judit An old dear acquaintance of mine …………………………………………………. An art-patron billionaire in Hungary ………………………………………………….. Cry for help …………………………………………………………………………….. The Support ……………………………………………………………………………. Questions and answeres ………………………………………………………………... The Mask thrown ………………………………………………………………………. The telephone-call at late in the evening ……………………………………………….. The fight of the Billions ………………………………………………………………... The Christmas saying good-bye ………………………………………………………... Memories from the Past Some present thrown away and some other which cannot be taken away …………...